Thursday, August 09, 2007
hello.
okay guess who i am.
i am probably one of the most unexpected person to actually post with this heh!
anyway today NDP just ended, and I just realized something I found kinda touching.
like when we were discussing where to go and all that. yeah.
omgosh like serious yall can delay like freaking long la, and in the end we still take hours to decide what we really wanna do or where we wanna go, but like what yingxiang says, i think actually after all those talks and all that, I sorta already felt like I've went there already.
ANYWAY I JUST WANNA SAY WE MUST CHOPE ONE DAY GO MARINA RELEASE KITES GO FOR STEAMBOAT GO POOL GO ARCADE GO BOWLING GO CAMWHORE LIKE err. NORMAL. yeah :D
AND im VERY SAD because me and leen met into New Town softballers today, BUT THEY CANNOT RECOGNIZE US THEY CAN ONLY RECOGNIZE SIMIN OMGOMG WE WERE STARING LIKE O_O AND THEY STILL CLDN'T RECOGNIZE US.
they can only recognize simin la. miEe bErii jEaLouS wOrHxX dEyy hUrTt mUi fEeliNgs nErhXx, dUn fReN dEm le lArhxx. oMgiEXx i sOuNd sO kAwAii hEhEx.
okay yucks.
anyway you get my point.
And I think "gold or nothing" sounds cool, BUTBUTBUT I really don't mind silver. yar.
and i miss SRCs.
and i miss trainings, coz i think i skipped like 2 trainings from yall.
rawrrr.
yeah was rewatching some stuff and i just wanna say I really love the rgssoftballcdiv06 movie so can we make one for next year too?
^^
shit im running out of things to say im boredddd.
okay typhoon's gna leave us next year coz it belongs to the seniors sighs and btw SEC4 FAREWELL.
i must be REALLY bored to do this at 12.32am of National Day.
oh yeah National Day, okay Happy Birthday Singapore!
okay i shall be emo. i was just thinking....and i got really really scared, yeah and im not afraid to admit im scared for this thingy. like...well i guess i've heard stuff. seems true that people do change cca in JC yes, but the apparent issue for our year seems kinda serious, i don't wanna elaborate much coz im not that clear about the details myself but yeah. For our team, im scared.
to be honest, it'll really feel weird if anyone's missing. Say someone leaves, and you see the person walking around the school, and it just feels damn weird i guess. Like...I dno..like why did it have to happen? Like a bond's broken or something. so yeah...i guess as the years passed, my fear increased. We all know that people are joining us, but we don't know who's leaving. Then again, i pray no one leaves haha. but yeah.
okay im gonna be damn rou ma now so yall better appreciate this coz usually i wouldn't say stuff like this. as I was saying...yeah...somehow despite the fact that I can adapt rather easily to conditions, I seemed to have grown accustomed to the presence of you 9, such that there is this emotional attachment. no wait what am i saying, emotional attachment's normal, i mean like i dno. ahha like something sisterly, say imagine simin runs up and says " waaaaaaaah this stranger whacked me " yeah then i'll probably take a bat and wallop that guy like ABC?
like yeah, i guess im really really used (okay sounds like a bad word to use but you get my point) to seeing all of u at least 3 times a week, shouting all of your names at least more than 20 times for each training such that it's kinda weird, no that weird, like scary if all of a sudden all these doesn't happen anymore. Like the frequency changed or something. Don't like the feeling of missing someone, but then again in any case, it's different. It's like i dno...we laughed and cried in togetherness, had each our fair share of jokes and complaints be it about anything under the sun, and injure and got injured by each other. It's different from just a group of friends knowing each other and sitting on a table having lunch if you compare it to us. Like there's something else to it I can't say. Words can't describe I guess. And all of a sudden poof 3 years are practically over. And im thinking if we're lucky, it's 3 more years for us again, then again, if anything else happens beyond our control, it's one last year we've got 365 days later as the complete batch.
okay maybe not complete cannot forget xs neRhXx =p
er okay yeah.
im thinking about how we fought our way through.
not our best.
but next year it'll be.
and all of a sudden i just realized why the " last season " was so important to the seniors.
because it is to me too.
and im sure to all of us it'll be.
anyway good night sweet dreams everyone though i think everyone's already in lalaland except me.
Larissa's sleepover was really sweet. though we were all random at the very end. I think everyone thought i was asleep or everyone thought I sleptwalk the night before coz I just suddenly woke up at 3am and started walking around, plus you guys probably thought i was trying to gain enough sleep for my competition next day.
actually the truth was. I heard you guys talking about all those stuff, especially larissa saying we're probably the truly completely bonded batch, and all those thingies about us being people coming from completely different backgrounds, on different paths, going different direction, but united by one goal in this sport. I guess I just couldn't get to sleep then.
i suppose it's just paranoia haha ignore me cos i probably wnt say silly stuff like these anymore.
P.S. I thought you guys wanna blackmail flea with her kawaii inflated beachball photo?
softcookies!